Bigger Than You Think- A Faery Tale

Natalie

     I was somewhere else, lost in unconsciousness, hardly aware of my surroundings.  In a moment I became lucid.  I’m observing tall human like figures, in dress and demeanor, seemingly royalty.  They are congregating, talking amongst themselves.  They are beautiful, pale shimmering skin, fine features, preternaturally beautiful.  They are powerful and the energy streaming from them- massive.  They aren’t paying any attention to me, and a part of me fears what will happen if they notice my presence.  It’s obvious to me, my energy is dull and clouded in comparison.  My fear being that they recognize me for what I am- a lesser being.  I chose to reveal myself anyway.  In a seemingly automatic movement I sort of bow to them, like worship, or undying admiration/respect.  They see me and instead of rejecting me or being disgusted by me-they surround me in an accepting embrace.  There’s some sort of music, like an ecstatic exhalation. I felt as if they recognized me after a long time of being gone, I feel as if I’ve been missed, I feel accepted, and home.  It was profound. 

     From here I am swept up into a different space.  All is darkness, except I’m beginning to see my reflection in a mirrored surface.  I’m wearing some sort of blue shawl, more like swirling water metallic blue energy on and around me.  My eyes are so blue and I tell myself in understanding, “ah, yes!  I’m blue!”  I am more beautiful then I’ve ever witnessed myself, it seems to be my face and my overall essence, but my features are luminescent, bold, and complicated.  The more I look at myself, the more I notice.  I’m naked but adorned in some sort of body chain.  The chain glitters and sparkles and slinks around my body like an ever changing snake.  I am larger than my person, I am greater, I am wiser, I am more beautiful, but not in an classically earthen manner.  In a way that makes me consider the concept of a soul.   My soul, ever emanating and manifesting my vision of self.  This life I chose a face that hopefully portrays part of my soul, maybe next time i’ll choose to be an element, or a plant, or an elephant, a faery, an angel or a muse.